My Best Companion Being a Writer
When people ask me: How about your PhD? When will you finish it? What is remaining? Why don’t you finish it?
I say: Writing a PhD thesis introduced me to journaling, blogging and writing. I don’t see myself completing a PhD thesis anymore. I’d rather prefer writing my self-help books, blogging in my website and sharing my work with friends and family.
Then you see those judging cues, critical eye contact and and disappointed body language.
Well nowadays I don’t need people to understand me or make sense of me. My writing journey has become a personal development process for me.
Writing earlier was a scary way to know my thoughts and the inner traumas I had inside me. Then it became an empowering and inspiring piece for others to consume.
With regards to making money out of my writing, when I think that way, it takes the flavour out of my writing practice. I lose interest and the critical part of me becomes very active and hyper.
But when I keep the money making part aside and only focus on writing and presenting myself in my blog posts, the writing becomes real again, authentic and raw.
Well if you ask me: Money was never something essential for my human experiences. In life I see more meaningful experiences that are worth focusing on and exploring rather than money alone.
I see many limitations and restrictions when you add the monetizing to the writing process like:
Giving up if writing doesn’t generate income
Writing becomes conditional rather than unconditional
Writing becomes transactional rather than authentic
It would mean I am writing to make money rather than for a greater purpose.
The critical part of the mind becomes so hyper, critical and judgmental. And that’s extremely hard for my anxiety